i find myself turning incredibly introspective. i ave to face the harsh reality that something i never thought to achieve, something that isn't that bad will be happening soon..
something that i fear to miss, but fear more to embrace.
i am turning 30 in a few months. i know many 30yr olds, but it's always been a few years off for me. strangely it's hittin me harder than i expected. it difficult to explain. and the weirdest thing i find myself thinking is 'i donlt feel 30' heh. i guess folks, that yes, that';s wot it feels like.. somewere around 24-27 but with a different label.
i managed to make it here tatto free, 1 peircing, and i have as yet to ever totally shave my head, so mother should be proud.
i drive a fancy car, and have a great morgage, which i am on top of, so my father should be proud.
i have a wonderful daughter, who is a happy and outgoing child wth no obvious trouble in her life yet. so that should make me proud.
sad that i feel remorse for no reason, and sader that i feel sad.
no moral to this story this time i am afraid. - oh aside from the fact i am afaid.